I know what you mean. All the guys in my family are fisherman, I kind of got this bug on my own. I had (have) not ever actually killed an animal on purpose but I heard a buddy describing turkey hunting when we were out on a fishing trip one time. The more I thought about it the more intriguing it sounded. I have gone for the last 3 years and haven't got one yet, but I have come close several times and ALWAYS have a story or 3 to tell when I get out of the woods. I saw an ad on the back of a magazine, I believe it was a Mossy Oak ad on the back of Outdoor magazine, that showed a hunter over a turkey that he had just killed and the verbiage was about how hunters should respect the game that they hunt. It was a touching ad, and kind of solidified to me that this was part of the overall picture and that it was ok to enjoy.
Professional Turkey Scarer Awayer